My Precision Reignites
L i t e r a c y
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there isn`t anymore pain,
life`s now like sunshine and no rain
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just like a fairytale,
my dream came true
it became real
since i found you
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in pure anxiety i wait
of whats the next take,
i hope it isnt a break
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all i need is a miracle,
perhaps this is just any obstacle
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staring into the night
all alone but thats alright,
it`s the feeling deep inside that i dont like
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when will i ever see the light,
or that happy face so bright ?
if only my fairytale could turn to reality,
then there won`t be anymore agony
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Tuesday, August 30, 2005
-Tuesday, August 30, 2005
soul-searching should have always been part of my daily routine, it has helped me greatly in terms of my life and future.
and,
i`ve finally understood. .
by fate did we meet
but the failure of survivor through thick and thin,
made me realised we just didnt click
yes, this was the answer to all my doubts. my millions of questions inside of my head. and all those distrust of what we used to have. and as you said, friends we`ll continue to be, but what had it turned out as ? this question, is worth asking yourself. and i plead you, please dont ever ask me 'that' question again. it really made me shocked. - youre help is greatly appreaciated
Saturday, August 27, 2005
-Saturday, August 27, 2005
me and san, he hee <3
at starbucks too,
. . me and leo
all three of us (:
Friday, August 26, 2005
-Friday, August 26, 2005
here i am. . wanting so much to blog about something. but unfortunately, i have nothing to talk about. and sadly, my days have been pretty dull and life`s a meaningless issue. its getting worse, and noone seems affected by it at all.
sigh. im really forcing myself to blog when its all bullshit. mummy`s gone on holiday until 1208'05. thats long. tmr i`ll be out with san jiee and leo korr. love them ! <3 san`s the only person who really brightens up my days apart from sy. but sadly, she`s always unfree to join us out ):
i love my grandma. i owe her 105 dollars. and thanks for the watch ((:
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
-Tuesday, August 23, 2005
she seemed to have the almost perfect life ever. samantha. anyway, today was our dear sam`s birthday. and i swear, i knew it but it totally slipped off my mind. honestly saying larh, i dont quite know her well. but still, a very
HAPPY BIRTHDAY to her ((: she turns fifteen today :))
we had physics, dnt and ss all today larh. it was crazy ! went sam`s house today as me and felicia, - well, just put it as me. i was looking for graph paper to do my math hwork which i dont have. and our dear school bookshop auntie closes her shop at three. moreover, we ended school at four today ? so no chance to buy cause i forgotten to get it during recess. it was my fault. main purpose to sam`s house was to do my graph actually. serious ! but it turned out all wrong. instead sam, fel, zu and me had this yumcious dinner with her whole family ! and her poor maid was cleaning and clearing and cleaning and clearing the table. . well, she didnt seemed to mind it very much, unlike my maid. . x:
and her so very loving parents - they seemed to dote on their children alot ! and i was amazed. they knew that we were at their place and asked if we wanted to stay for dinner. okay, we agreed. and when they reached home around 6.45, . . what i saw on the dining table really made my mouth drop wide open in utter disbelief :
1. 50 satays
2. chilli kang kong
3. steamed egg
4. fried egg
5. fried luncheon meat
6. healthy soup
7. sashimi
8. etc
. .and the list goes on. . so you see ! they not only dote on their own children but on others too ! sam`s mum went to fry the egg and fried luncheon meat for fel and me, thinking that we dont eat steamed egg, which we do ! ha ha, but its alright larh. . in the end, we also didnt finish. after dinner we had grapes and then orange juice. fel was special - she had sprite. lol and as zubaidah was muslim, she purposely went to buy some malay food for her. how sweet of sam`s parents right ?
just compare my family and hers lor. such a big difference. their family is like so united and close. and her mum was very humourous and chatty. her dad too. and her little bro was so cute larh. even the maid laughed along. . my family is like on the verge of breaking apart for good and hers ? . . the total opposite ! something like noey`s family but the more lively and chatty version.
after dinner, parents even sent us home ! sam`s parents dropped her and their son, for tuition first ( which they were extremely late for because of us ) and then me which was about a ten minutes or so drive away and last stop to tampines for fel and zu. indeed very kind of them ! really.
thanks sam and her parents for the lovely dinner and time there. they really made us all feel welcomed. and i am sure for one thing - im very grateful to them (:
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
-Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Monday, August 15, 2005
-Monday, August 15, 2005
i was wondering what was so significant about yesterday, and it was not until today that i realised that it wasnt because of faye`s birthday. neither was it because of varun`s birthday, fel`s mum`s birthday, or cf`s friend`s birthday. but it was our supposedly second month anniversary. my heart totally sank at the thought of it. of what i had early dreamt during the beginning of ' our ' relation.
. . but i feel that somehow, its quite useless now.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
-Wednesday, August 10, 2005
they told me to forget. .
. . but i guess it didnt help
-Wednesday, August 10, 2005
thinking back. .i guess this is the punishment god gave me - by taking away my happiness from me
Sunday, August 07, 2005
-Sunday, August 07, 2005
im lost. its over. this happiness ended just as how quickly it had begun. i dont know what to do. . i feel like hanging on, but somehow i know he`ll never come back to me. EVER.
. . or will he ?
Saturday, August 06, 2005
-Saturday, August 06, 2005
okay. no more stress for anyone, alright ? but there`s this question which keeps on appearing in my mind and its bothering me so much i cant do anything right the whole day - do you still love me ?
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and i expect that this simple yet complex question can answer all my questions in a summary. thanks.
Friday, August 05, 2005
-Friday, August 05, 2005
it didnt turned out that perfect as i thought it would. this relation we share, shall always be there. this, i promise you. but unfortunately, the miserable part is what i simply cant believe or accept it. even throughout the honeymoon period, things are turning around and getting pretty bad. how remorse can my pathethic love life get ? sometimes, i really wonder if im up to it, ready to accept this new guy in my life. to put away my past, and forget it all, after so long. so yes, i did place in all my hopes and to treasure every single moment we spend together. but what do we get in return ? arguements ever since 1706. sigh. deep down in my heart, im always reminding myself that i HAVE to be patient with youre often late replies as you did. and that i MUST be understanding. but i couldnt control. and i seriously did not foresee these many unfortunate things to happen in just this short period of time just as our relation continues on. these events have indeed cut me deep. so much that i think i`ve gone numb. there`s so much i want to know. . and so much i want to tell you. but i restrict myself in order not to cause anymore problems for us both. somehow, if i were to think back, maybe we`ve gone too fast. and rushed into things, not thinking it through before we carry on. now, during these few days you requested me to give you, to think it all through and calm down, i really hope i dont hear what is bad news for me. and also, that despite all these unhappy events, we can still overcome them bravely together and solve them like we used to do. i wonder if you are reading this. if you are, please do remember. .
Forever it seems to be,
just like eternity
This everlasting love,
that i can see
We shall have this promise
that lies in the core of our hearts :
no matter what happens,
we will NEVER part
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I LOVE YOU, DEAR.
yes, i do. trust me. trust you.
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
-Tuesday, August 02, 2005
baby i love you and i`ll never let you go. but if i have to, boy i think that you should know. of the love we made, can never be erased. and i promise you, that you will never be replaced.
baby i love you and i`ll never let you go. but if i have to, boy i think that you should know. the love we made. can never be erased. and i promise you, that you will never be replaced.
i love you. yes i do. i`ll be with you as long as you want me to. until - the end - of time
from the day i met you, i knew we`ll be together. and i now i know i wanna be with you forever
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never be replaced
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i dont know whats going to happen tmr
or how long this tension between me and him is going to take
. . somethings i`ve always yearned to know
