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Thursday, March 31, 2005
-Thursday, March 31, 2005
those beautiful days were long gone. .. . will they ever be coming back ?
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
-Tuesday, March 29, 2005
lost my passion for blogs. didnt even read faseho`s blog. the mood`s just not there anymore. and wow. indeed i was surprised when she talked to me in msn after so long. faseha ! you`ve forgotten me. even at school !
anyway, i somehow feel pretty down lately. even shiyun, the class` most cheerful and 24-7 happy girl`s been in a bad mood the whole day. because she got detention for not going sports day. and she left poor cf alone. guess she was hopping mad. if i were her, i`d be super lonely too. cause felicia was one of the student helpers. oh well. the one problem i hate with my class is the fact that the number of girls are very few. FOUR.
today, i freaking splashed chilli sauce over my shirt when eating my favourite siew mai. in the most most obvious area - right splat in the middle of it. sigh. how clumsy can i get ? tried washing it off several times but the stubborn sauce simply stays. made my shirt all wet in the front for nothing. the worse part, i still couldnt get it off ! how irritating can it get ? in the end, was stuck with it for the whole day. i shall eat siew mai-s more carefully and cautiously in the future. people, remind me to !
okay. i know my blog`s been very boring and serious. cant help it. thats the way i am. and as i said, im not feeling very good or happy since mid last year. until i`ve met erica and co. ( : they`ve made my year brighter all year round. but until now. that one happiness i found with them is gone once again. but still, back to the topic of that one person, i know im silly. foolish, i`d say. after one year, and im still silently holding on. i just dont want anyone to know that i still care deeply inside of me. that im still the same old rachel who hasnt matured and have the sense to forget it all. it all began with. .
NO - that one word said it all. it crushed and cut me deep.
forgotten me. left me.
Monday, March 21, 2005
-Monday, March 21, 2005
ask you. there`s a scenario whereby if you were a parent. and had a daughter. a very young one. you`re all in a shop and ure daughter needs the toilet. would you allow her to pee in the middle of the shop or carry her to the nearest washroom just a couple of metres away ?
i, for instance would bring her to the nearest washroom possible. and allowing her to pee in some public area, whatsmore, in someone else`s property, is a no-no thing for me - the very last thing i would do. cause i think it is terribly rude to do so where many people are walking about.
this incident actually happened at bata that day when i was working. this family- a father, mother and little girl walked into the shop. and when i turned around, i saw the small girl had her pants pulled down and she was peeing out of nowhere ! the parents must be very inconsiderate people and not to forget, uncivilised too. for one thing, if she was ' that ' urgent to pee, would she even have the time to pull down her pants ? no. she would have just let everything go at the spot.
the mother, trying to clear all evidence, i saw her squating on the floor with a pathetic piece of tissue paper in her hand, cleaning up after her daughter`s urine. gross ! after that, they acted AS IF nothing happened and without a ' sorry ' said, they walked out of the store. thats the worse part of it all. inconsiderate and no-manners humans ! wonder how they can even teach their child proper manners in the future. or she will probably grow up like those two so-called ' good ' parents of hers and go round letting her future child pee whenever and wherever he or she feels like to. urgh !
poor serena had to clean up after the mess. mop the floor and all. anyway, most importantly, i hope no more people will do such a retarded thing as that family. NO MORE, okay ? sigh.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
-Wednesday, March 16, 2005
yipeee ! today`s trg was at bedok reservoir. so excited the whole morning lol. never been there for so long. and i think the wind was so much stronger than two year ago. gee. then everytime running halfway, the big big wind will come and disturb us. haiyo ! irritating like what only. .
anyway, happy part comes in when mr hardi say run 5k. everyone was sighing and making all those stupid noises. esp the sec1 girls. ha ha. say so long, all that. i, on the other hand, secretly happy inside only. whaha. actually. . not really secretly larh. ha ha. cause i showed it. first part of the run i chiong down the slope already. ha ha. like never run before. lol. but in the end, managed to run my best ever timing for 5k today ! whohoo ! its 26.29 min. lol. okay, i know it aint that fast but STILL ! . . its my fastest. x:
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
-Wednesday, March 09, 2005
chased, pushed about. all alone and not pleasantly surprised that my uncontrollable attitude is back again. throwing tantrums. messing around and hating myself for every single thing i do. im abnormal. im foolish. i`ve lost him even more although he`s my friend. why is everyone so happy ? all except me. friends whom i know, have their special someone with them. - why not me too ? okay, some even worse, getting married somemore. never tell me. : or is it just a discussion ? nevermind. all these 'friends' simply enjoy turning away from me. they have their guys. im not at all jealous at this. maybe this is my fault. my punishments for my ruthlessness, wrong-doings and misdeeds. oh, i get it. pay back time huh ? . . so tell me, how can i make up for all that ? is it already too late ? i want you, . . . this is all mixed up. i dont understand a single shit im typing. do you ? i wish im sane. ) :
Sunday, March 06, 2005
-Sunday, March 06, 2005
this morning, when i was sleeping, i thought i heard my phone ringing in my dreams. okay, i know thats a dumb dream but its true ! it rang and rang and stopped. and starting ringing again, i somehow got up and reached for my phone. i saw on its screen the word ' bata ' blinking on it. i looked at the time, and hell ! it was like 11.00 am. and thats the time im supposed to be there to start work. i thought i was still sleeping. i was probably too tired. but then again, i was too scared to pick up the phone.
i heard serena`s voice and she was like saying, ' rachel ! where are you now ? ' . i answered her, ' at home ' in this guilty crooked-up voice i get when i just get up from bed. and serena was getting to sound anxious, ' omgosh ! you just woke up ? ' ha ha. i was speechless. i told her i`ll hurry up and reach the shop asap. she said andy needs me to check stock thats why.
and on the bata ' rules ' list, its stated that if we`re late, have to deduct 3 hours salary. and i was like. . sadded ! when i reached there half an hour later, i saw andy checking the stocks. serena did the orh-hor thing at me. and shahid made his crooked smile. i felt so scared ! went to andy to apologise. he told me he wont deduct my pay. not only that, serena bought me dinner !. i was like oh-wow ! such kind souls they are. i shall repay then back one day ( :
today me and serena kept talking about our dogs. she has two. one big, one small. i told her and andy about my dog story. and serena told me her stories too. i swear, some hilarious to the extreme. we couldnt stop laughing. and andy was like ' what what ? ? whats so funny ? tell me leh '. poor him x :
oh, and felicia came to visit me today. ha ha. shiyun also visited me earlier in january. so now, its left with cheowfern who is the
only other girl in my class who hasnt visit me at work yet. ha ha. i shall wait. . x : btw, i sold 77 shoes ! shahid ? - only 45. whaha. i won him this time round. lets see about next week. lol. shahid. . watch out !
-Sunday, March 06, 2005
i like this doggie ! . . but sadly, it isnt mine ) :
Saturday, March 05, 2005
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
my mum. the dog. and me !
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
it has a super duper longlong tail
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
The Story of the Lost Dog. . begins !
it happened yst. i was walking home after school like any other normal day. and when i turned into a corner, i suddenly see this super cute doggie, golden retriever, walking across the road to where i was. it seemed to be walking side by side with a girl in green tee. i thought it was hers and she was taking it for a walk. . so i didnt care much
as i was walking, the dog overtook me and turned into the lane of where my house was. i was thinking, wow. didnt know this dog stayed here. it sat on this grassy patch just opposite my house. i pressed the door bell and as i was waiting for the gate to open, the dog stood up and walked in circles around me.
the gate opened, it ran straight into the house and didnt want to leave. we managed to shoo it away though, but it sat right outside my house and waited and waited. my mum guessed it was thristy and gave it a pail of water to drink from. its saliva landed everywhere. guessed it was still a puppy.
we finally let it in where it tried to make friends with our own dog, bess. but she was so unfriendly that she kept barking at the other dog. typical her. we allowed them to have some time together and they soon made friends. ha ha. but the GR was so big and my dog, so small, they looked quite weird when together. bess kept trying to stand on her hind legs to reach the height of the GR. she must have felt funny. and the way they each tried to smell each other`s butt was super hilarious too.
in the end, let the GR stay overnight. and throughout the whole night, even from my room, we could hear it crying. so poor thing. and heard from my maid that at seven the following morning , when she opened the back door, it ran straight out. and away it went. i was still sleeping, sadly. and didnt get to see the last of it. i guess it went home. awww. . i hope it`ll come back x :
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
smelling its butt
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
now her turn smell my dog`s butt lol. animal`s nature ? |:. lol
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
my maid`s stress face, keeping an eye on the doggies
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
they look soooo cute ! . .
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
beautiful feet with socks on. ha ha. my manager here. cant exactly see his face full though. but he aint that tall, so dont be fooled.
-Saturday, March 05, 2005
saxey ! whaha
Wednesday, March 02, 2005
-Wednesday, March 02, 2005
ooooh. todays faseha`s daddy`s birthday ! happy birthday uncle ! whakaka. im am oh-so happy today but also quite upset. well, what can i say ? mixed feelings once again. sigh. but lets start with the ugly side of my day first. two things - my dad , and him. shall not elaborate further. efforts, never appreciated.
im like stuffing myself with food and more food these few days. im mad can. garrgh ! my bloggie is like the only most faithful thing that i can relate all this nonsensical rubbish to. cause it has no choice but to let me type into it. what am i talking ? heck. hopefully some kind soul would come up to me and explain things clearly from the start. gosh ! i really dont understand what im talking again. o well. . im just feeling so weird today. so not myself.
and then i think again, are my friends truly my friends ? do they really mean what they say and do ? just putting up an act before me. i wish i knew better. sigh. im such a lousy friend. how i wish i could just silently walk out of this world. people probably wont even realise im gone.
happy things. my dnt has definitely improved drastically. 20/50. im saved ! cause with my workpiece, im sure im able to pass much better than last year. once i saw my dnt results when mr lee passed the test paper to me. i even had to check my name twice before actually believing i`ve done so much better than in the past. shouted over for mr chia when i saw him and showed the paper to him. so excited ! even mr lee was secretly laughing. and i caught him ! he`s so lame can. and i think mr chia probably think im nuts. but cant be helped larh. its my first time seeing 20/50 for my dnt test. well, grades been improving. except chem, that is. noone wants to offer me a helping hand. so what can i do about it ? and tmr`s chem test. and im so gonna fail full strength. i hate it when i do ! sigh. okay, anyway, this is supposed to be the happy section of the day. so, the next happy part is that my physics i scored 30/50 ! its like -woohoo !- for me. lets see if there`s anymore good ones ?
well, not any that i can think of right now. o yea, the scary guy from track didnt come today. im so blessed. training`s been slacking more than usual. i prefer ms choo`s training though. mr hardi just doesnt seem right although he has put in some effort today to at least wear his shirt and shorts, and carry a whistle too ! how surprising right ?
okay. dont exactly have the feelings to type anymore. the end.
