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Saturday, July 31, 2004
-Saturday, July 31, 2004
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AZEIMAH ! ! !
hehee. can tell you really loved those shoes and the Jet cd huh. hahaa. crazy girl. jump jump jump. . hug hug hug. . -LoL- 15years old already still so childish : x -laughs-
as usual, went for mentoring today. ended early cause i did nearly all the qst. met up with kim at the canteen and we walked to her home together where i took a bus to interchange. on the way kim told me that ester going girls home ! ! omg ! big news man. hahaa. who ask her so stupid, heard she go beat up teacher =.= siao derh.
reach home then kim called me say erica giving us tickets to watch the ndp preview. i was like WOW ! ! hahaa. so happy. thanks erica ~ ~ supposed meet kim at 4.45pm at kallang but i was late. . reached there like 5+ =.= whole place jammed with people, all in red. then me and kim wore white shirts.
we really had alot of fun. although its only 2 of us. but we were screaming our hearts out at nearly everything, especially at the beautiful sights of the fireworks ! we took like more than 15photos of them. . so pretty ! ! then there`s this guy called JJ Lin Junjie. he sang ' Home ' sounded really really weird i must say. damn hilarious.
after that we decided go meet erica. then again, whole place very jammed. took us very long to get out of the stadium. then the overhead bridge alot of people also - they not even moving lor. in the end, me and kim climbed over the fence. damn high leh. . its those high high, green green, in the middle of the road that one. so scary ! nearly fell : x it was nearly 45minutes later then we met up with erica and her two friends. and we all took bus 31 home together. . kinda tiring day. i now like nomore voice already cause i actually had sorethroat, then eat Lays, then keep screaming somemore. . scared tmr no voice ) :
Friday, July 30, 2004
-Friday, July 30, 2004
im afraid of the truths. i still keep running away from them, and hiding myself away. it seems like ure at the other end of the planet. im still hoping against hopes for us. o well. . nothing can be done about it right ?
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today went town get azei`s present with kim and erica. tmr`s her birthday, i expect she`s counting down the hours by now ( : total there`s erica, kim, fara, bangz, gerald, nic and me sharing it. a whole lot of people hor ? 7people leh. . got azei her beloved Jet cd and a pair of pretty shoes. hehee. hope she likes it d : she better !
anw today school was like a dream. as usual in the morning had english and math like we do every friday. and omg ! it was news that no mdm fong lesson today. whole class cheering man. all so happy. after recess still have poa. everyone dreads it. then when me kim azeimah and erica were going up the squarestairs, we heard screams coming from the 3rd floor. when we reached our class, everyone were like screaming their heads off like some lunatic-crazy people. we were shocked then we found out that ms zubaidah, the poa teacher didnt come. SHE DIDNT COME alright ! big miracle. woohoo ! whole class cheering like anything. screaming their heads off. hugging each other for joy. slapping high-fives. going down for recess Part-2 hahaa. it was like WOW ! no poa lesson. even bigger news than no mdm fong lesson. you dont know how zubaidah tortures us during lessons. and on some days when we`re suppose to have free periods, she`ll always come in and take over them. . idiot. . : x and jamin was saying she probably went for an extreme makeover thats why never come school! wahahaa ! !
so it was like very good luck. 3e6`s feng shui finally changed. after recess was free periods all the way til school`s over ! good hor ? ( :
Wednesday, July 28, 2004
-Wednesday, July 28, 2004
its been days since i last blogged. nothing interesting really happened anw. just tests here and there. and today`s test was chinese. damn chinese. make everyone so stressed. white hair ? maybe ? nearly everyone was busy doing their last-minute revision when mdm fong stepped into the classroom. shit. panic. but in the end, the test wasnt as difficult as i thought it`ll be. maybe can pass ne !
after school kim had detention. so went mac with erica and azeimah. so fun ! total madness. we were so boliao that we started making up our own mac adverts. brought digi-cam ma. were like advertising for erica`s quater pounder, our fries. . blahblahh. pratically laughing throughout the whole time.
then rushed back to school. erica and me wanted to go for the track and field nationals finals. azei said she`d go home. kim`s meeting us at the stadium. met xiaoying and pearl in the bus. so much fun. talking crap. erica even started singing this song ' show me the building that you were saying ' . . in the tune of that backstreet boys ' show me the meaning of being lonely '. and we were like =.= hahaa.
at the stadium, my junior, jaslyn told me about ms choo wanting to ignore me. and i was like wth. why ! i totally didnt understand. she says ms choo told the other trackers she didnt want to talk to me cause i missed out too much trgs. so sad man ) : petty. sighs. what to do ? then at that time was b-boys 4x400 relay. i totally went nuts. screaming like an idiot. partly joining in the rest, and partly trying to get my sadness and anger off me. i felt so retarded. so down. as if i were a nothing. ms choo. . why ! ! hais. screaming with all my might. . tearing. agrh. im so sad ! )) :
anw, today`s events results werent that good. were like 3rd last. . 4th last. . and one event even got last. but matthew`s 1500m he came in 3rd. so good. kaisheng ! you did great ! so nice to see you guys in action. ayes. -jealous- anw guys, good run. do better next year. good luck ~ ~ ! dont slack arh. . : x
Monday, July 19, 2004
-Monday, July 19, 2004
I miss Carol. I miss Ian. Life was much happier back then. ) : still -sadistic-
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Somehow, i really feel that a big part in my life is missing. I didnt treasure those i love til theyre gone. Carol is gone now. I wonder if we`ll still be able to meet again. Why is my life turning into such misery ? i really feel out of place now. noone to laugh with during dnt lessons. . noone to really spend recess with me. sighs. carol. . i wish you werent going. i hope youre doing well though ( = good luck in ure studies okay ? I LOVE YOU ! ! ! And now. i still cant get him off my mind. what to do ? im so stubborn. i still refuse to let go after so long. 10th april until now ? i really wish i could turn back time. and get everything right then.
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During poa lesson today, Ms Zubaidah kept saying me when she first stepped into the classroom. i didnt do my poa hwork, so was busy hurrying to copy gerald`s ( my partner ) answers. As expected, Ms Zubaidah saw me copying. She said im a copycat. Must think it over. Dont cheat. blahblahh. And i was like. . wth. copy answer must say me till like this in front of the class. She already knows how much im trying to change this term. why WHY cant she stop being so sacastic towards me ? i already know im wrong there. but there are sososoo many other people copying hwork too. why pick on me? i understand. . but why must she still continue doing it now ? She shouldnt remind me of those times. when i was silly. when i dont why why i do those stupid things. argh ! damn pissed off.
during her lesson later on, vanessa asked me if i`ve done my math hwork. i said ' No, but i did alittle ' . then gerald kaypo kaypo tell her ' Van, you know ure asking the wrong person ? ' I was like ' Whatever lor ' and i turned away. then after awhile, gerald asked me if there was any chinese hwork, so i tried being sacastic back to him and say ' You are asking the wrong person ' . And i didnt talk to him after that for the whole day. Why must he be so unfair to me ? And be so sacastic ? he should know the when is the right time to joke and when its not. he hurt me emotionally. was very upset, teared. think erica saw, cause she asked if i was okay or not. she`s so kind. i dont really get so emotional, especially when there`s people around me. But i think erica thought it was because of my poa test marks. i didnt fail it though, got 17.5/30 . Quite an improvement, cause i did it myself.
o well. . anw, gerald sort of kept talking to me. but i didnt answer him. I think he knew i was pissed off at him. then he msged me on my hphone, saying he`s sorry. such a nice guy. but still not nice enough. he better not be mean to me anymore, i hope. anw thanks gerald ( =
Sunday, July 18, 2004
-Sunday, July 18, 2004
woke up. . first thing i thought was Carol. she`s leaving today ! omg. so fast ! sighs
met azeimah about 12+. went tampines spotlight get some materials for carol`s present and to ntuc for some sweets. met erica after that, went bugis get this box and took neoprint. we went to the staircase area there to get the things done for carol`s present. we got her a Paul-Frank pencil case that she wanted, those sweets, and the neoprint. we put all of them in the box of which we decorated ( : I made her a card out of coloured icecream sticks. looked messy but overall, nicely done d : i even wrote her a good-bye poem under the name of ' Creak ' hehee. sounded weird though.
supposed to met the others - farhanah, delphine, nick, bangz, alaric, tzehan and of cause carol herself and her friend, willie at orchard swensons at 2.30pm. obviously we turned up late. reached there like 3+, nearly 4 : x hahaa. had some cake then azeimah had to go for some guides campfire in Dumai sec. carol suggested we spare her 10mins before azeimah left to go heeren`s Flash and Splash.
she insisted on getting us all presents. like a small gift to remember her. awww. . so sweet of carol right? we didnt want it at first. she told the shopguy she wanted 5 of those heart-shaped ripcurl keychains which cost $9.90 each. so expensive ! then buy 5 become $49.50. still got alaric a keychain too, but different from us. then she gave azeimah this extra-large roxy pencil case. $24+. azeimah didnt want it. . she says too ex already. o well. . carol`s just too kind. in the end, she made azei take it. .
finally sent her off to the airport about 7+ pm. hard to actually think that she`s really leaving. damn sad huh. she better remember us. those lovely times we shared. and the beautiful moments we spent together. the wonderful memories she left us. . come to think of it, i think she really shouldnt leave. but she keeps saying that she has to go. already booked her flight and all that. . hais. never even got to be proper friends for a year and now. . she has to go ) :
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Everything`s been such a tragedy,
with you leaving us in misery
We hope you`ll be happy
and forever stay merry
Remember there`s always CREAK
Carol, Rachel, Erica, Azeimah and Kim
We`re sure you`ll reach the peak,
and never fall off the brim
We hope you`ll remember CREAK forever
cause once you`re gone,
we can never be together
If you came back,
we would all be glad
Just don`t go for good
cause it`ll dampen our moods
We LOVE You !
Tuesday, July 13, 2004
-Tuesday, July 13, 2004
why is life so miserable for me ? can it not get any worse ? i wonder how you are every single day. . what you are doing. . will you think of me ? o well. . you wont, im sure. you have no reason to. anw. i`ve made up my mind, after showing you my poem I`ve written today, there wont be anymore msgs from me. i`ll go. as long as i can control. hopefully, one day you be back to me (=
after this, it`ll be a good bye. a longgggg good bye for you and me. maybe a new story will begin. . sighs
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-Out of Love-
Fooled as a fool,
was never really cool
caught in a situation
I`ve never before gone through
As hard as i wish,
or as hard as i hope,
I`m never going to make it
never going to cope
Why do i keep seeing you?
out of coincidence or is this fate?
Are we meant for each other
or meant to be just mates
Sunday, July 11, 2004
-Sunday, July 11, 2004
sighs. its difficult for me to forget you. i have another try though. i know you`d be happy, without me hanging onto you everyday, irritating you with stupid and unneccessary smses. i hate myself for doing that. hais. what can i do? pretend there never was a you? its crazy and i cant bare to. i`ve been such a loser, a weakling, a fool.
hais, i still love you, alot. // just one last chance. . ? o gawd ! how naive can i get ? argh ! !
Saturday, July 10, 2004
-Saturday, July 10, 2004
hais. . why why ? ? he lied to me again. what for? to make me happy or to make me sad? i trusted ure words everytime, yet you keep lying about everything ! i wish i could tell someone how i really feel. my heart is crying. noone sees it, noone hears it. he cant really be bothered with me. not even as a friend. 2years of friendship probably doesnt mean anything to him. i`d love to see him happy. but i cant bring myself to. . seeing him love another girl, or even talk about other girls just to make me stop loving him, just makes me feel so upset. but i pretended i never was. i cant ! i`ve tried. i really cant do it.
since the last time we broke, i didnt even look or be bothered with other guys. i love myself. but i love you more. i know you cant see it. cause i didnt mention anything about it. was keeping quiet about everything all these time. i didnt dare. i promised never to mention it ever again. i told you i`d love you forever. these, were not broken. never shall be. i know im hurting myself. but i cant help it. i dont want to be an irritating person to you, although i know i am. hais. i know im not worth it. but. . am i not sincere enough? :|
hais ! im so sadistic. for a friend, like you, whom already found ure dream girl, i cant even be happy for. what am i? shit? cant even behave like a proper friend. lost EVERY chance i had. . god ! save me. . ) : my mind is like a whirl. i cant think straight. i dont know what to do. i dont know who to turn to. . i never had this feeling before
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
-Wednesday, July 07, 2004
wha. first thing in the morning, bus so crowded, even at my stop. had to squeeze in. noelle was at the stop after mine. so worried she couldnt get in then late again. . but the bus driver didnt even bother to stop anw. o well. . heard the earlier bus didnt come thats why the next bus was so crowded. :|
at 1120 had tempt. taking =.= mdm fong`s lesson ! i lost my thermometer so she say i borrow kim`s one go toilet wash then come back classroom take tempt =.= then i come back le, the thermometer reading didnt move, i thought spoil. then tell mdm fong cause she say she want to see my temperature ma. then she say borrow from vanessa her thermometer. ask me go back toilet wash it and come back take tempt again. and shun bian wash kim`s one again. ma fan ! make me walk up and down. waste my time. come back take tempt already then must go back toilet again wash van`s thermometer and return her. sit down awhile then bell ring for next lesson. =.= haiyo !
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
-Tuesday, July 06, 2004
damn tiring today man. first thing in morning, pe. 2.4 ! ! super hot the weather. and poor us had to run ) : but i still managed to be the first girl -bhb- hahaa. and the 8th person to complete my 2.4 among boys and girls together ( : but. timing, was horrible ! even worst than my sec1 timing. ) : was 14:03 hais. . sad sad. last time 12min + hais. big deprovement
saw mrs goh come back school today ! yipee ! so happy to see her. i love her man ! d : so long never see her liao. hopes she joins back as track tcher-in-charge. *hiakhiak* anw, after 2.4, whole class were like sian. . dont feel like studying le. nearly everyone not paying attention to all the lessons, all too tired. after school, still had extra chem lesson. BORING ! during lunch break ate one lor-mai-kai which lasted me til 9.30 at night. chem lesson over le, me and erica went popular near tampines interchange the S-11 there get some stuff for the notice board =.= cost me 10 over dollars ! ridiculous ! all i pay somemore : x then went back school meet kim. we stayed back til like 5+ to do the stupid board thing. hais. then nearly late for tuition. long day hor? glad its over.
Monday, July 05, 2004
-Monday, July 05, 2004
ooh ! caught spiderman 2 today. kinda late right? awwww. . but better late than never ! hehee. it was quite nice. as in, i understood the movie. cause arh. . other movies, i all like dont understand them : x maybe i slow. anws. was just a fantastic movie. hahaa. i keep repeating that hor? but think you have to watch the first show so you can understand the second one. and arh. . got alot alot ALOT of shocking parts. you can ask about them from me. cause, i know them all ! hahaa. i was a victim then. : x
Sunday, July 04, 2004
-Sunday, July 04, 2004
yst com siao. cant go online. try so many times til gave up. even if i got to go onine, it was only like afew minutes then dc. =.= lousy com : x anw, went meet ian get syf tickets. hahaa. he was having stomach ache or sth. then i see him like black face hahaa. scary ! : x then he never talk. . just took out this envelope and took out two tickets, passed it to me, and left. -LoL-
today. . went school in the morning. met kim at 201 busstop then walked together to school from there. wait for erica damn long. she had o lvl listening compre. end late. went classroom, supposed do the notice board for mdm bird. but we had nothing ! -as in no materials. went tmart to get them. but dont have. =.= ma fan. then did abit of notice board after we got the materials. after that, mentoring. i found out something unexpected. : x hehee. then mr fong saw me and my mentor outside the staff room benches, then he walked over say to her 'better watch out this girl. . make her good. .' blahblahh. he and his crap again. sickening man !
after mentoring, went home. changed. and out to the national stadium i went for the syf thing. kinda crowded, 80% all schools. i sat with nass. everyone in school-u, only i not. so weird! -LoL- it rained alittle then stopped. -funny . anw, it was pretty good. the 4 schools. bowen sec even can dance at the same time and play their instruments. pro. then tkss can even spin their instruments. wha. . even better. hahaa. in the end tkss won. after the whole thing, rushed to ben`s place for the bbq. i was late. and the last to arrive. : x hahaa. ate alittle. then talked alittle with shihui. so long never see her le. then just sit around. . laugh laugh. . then eat somemore. and drink rebina. . and byebyee. . go home. busy day right?
Thursday, July 01, 2004
-Thursday, July 01, 2004
felt so happy ( : ahhhh. . hahaa. ) :
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late late late again for school. had to take a cab with my friend to school. cost me 4dollars? then the driver dont know how to go nass haiyo ! reached school just after the bell rang. phew ! then quickly rushed off to morning assembly. ncc day today. . poor hakim, i thought he was pretty scared. as in freaked out. said the pledge wrongly. o well. .
after everything, quickly went locker with kim and erica. in the end, late for reading programme. mdm bird sent us out. hais. and she made us decorate the notice boards =.= how lame. outside the classroom, mr fong saw me, then he from 3n1 walk out to the door. wag wag his big finger at me to go over. so i go lor. then he say me. 'sec1 when i teach you, you so naughty. . sec2 leh? i keep seeing you in detention. now sec3? suspension and send out of class. never change.' then complain about my attire all that. whats wrong with it? haiya. typical mr fong.
