My Precision Reignites
L i t e r a c y
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there isn`t anymore pain,
life`s now like sunshine and no rain
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just like a fairytale,
my dream came true
it became real
since i found you
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in pure anxiety i wait
of whats the next take,
i hope it isnt a break
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all i need is a miracle,
perhaps this is just any obstacle
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staring into the night
all alone but thats alright,
it`s the feeling deep inside that i dont like
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when will i ever see the light,
or that happy face so bright ?
if only my fairytale could turn to reality,
then there won`t be anymore agony
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Monday, July 19, 2004
-Monday, July 19, 2004
I miss Carol. I miss Ian. Life was much happier back then. ) : still -sadistic-
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Somehow, i really feel that a big part in my life is missing. I didnt treasure those i love til theyre gone. Carol is gone now. I wonder if we`ll still be able to meet again. Why is my life turning into such misery ? i really feel out of place now. noone to laugh with during dnt lessons. . noone to really spend recess with me. sighs. carol. . i wish you werent going. i hope youre doing well though ( = good luck in ure studies okay ? I LOVE YOU ! ! ! And now. i still cant get him off my mind. what to do ? im so stubborn. i still refuse to let go after so long. 10th april until now ? i really wish i could turn back time. and get everything right then.
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During poa lesson today, Ms Zubaidah kept saying me when she first stepped into the classroom. i didnt do my poa hwork, so was busy hurrying to copy gerald`s ( my partner ) answers. As expected, Ms Zubaidah saw me copying. She said im a copycat. Must think it over. Dont cheat. blahblahh. And i was like. . wth. copy answer must say me till like this in front of the class. She already knows how much im trying to change this term. why WHY cant she stop being so sacastic towards me ? i already know im wrong there. but there are sososoo many other people copying hwork too. why pick on me? i understand. . but why must she still continue doing it now ? She shouldnt remind me of those times. when i was silly. when i dont why why i do those stupid things. argh ! damn pissed off.
during her lesson later on, vanessa asked me if i`ve done my math hwork. i said ' No, but i did alittle ' . then gerald kaypo kaypo tell her ' Van, you know ure asking the wrong person ? ' I was like ' Whatever lor ' and i turned away. then after awhile, gerald asked me if there was any chinese hwork, so i tried being sacastic back to him and say ' You are asking the wrong person ' . And i didnt talk to him after that for the whole day. Why must he be so unfair to me ? And be so sacastic ? he should know the when is the right time to joke and when its not. he hurt me emotionally. was very upset, teared. think erica saw, cause she asked if i was okay or not. she`s so kind. i dont really get so emotional, especially when there`s people around me. But i think erica thought it was because of my poa test marks. i didnt fail it though, got 17.5/30 . Quite an improvement, cause i did it myself.
o well. . anw, gerald sort of kept talking to me. but i didnt answer him. I think he knew i was pissed off at him. then he msged me on my hphone, saying he`s sorry. such a nice guy. but still not nice enough. he better not be mean to me anymore, i hope. anw thanks gerald ( =
