-Saturday, July 10, 2004

hais. . why why ? ? he lied to me again. what for? to make me happy or to make me sad? i trusted ure words everytime, yet you keep lying about everything ! i wish i could tell someone how i really feel. my heart is crying. noone sees it, noone hears it. he cant really be bothered with me. not even as a friend. 2years of friendship probably doesnt mean anything to him. i`d love to see him happy. but i cant bring myself to. . seeing him love another girl, or even talk about other girls just to make me stop loving him, just makes me feel so upset. but i pretended i never was. i cant ! i`ve tried. i really cant do it.

since the last time we broke, i didnt even look or be bothered with other guys. i love myself. but i love you more. i know you cant see it. cause i didnt mention anything about it. was keeping quiet about everything all these time. i didnt dare. i promised never to mention it ever again. i told you i`d love you forever. these, were not broken. never shall be. i know im hurting myself. but i cant help it. i dont want to be an irritating person to you, although i know i am. hais. i know im not worth it. but. . am i not sincere enough? :|

hais ! im so sadistic. for a friend, like you, whom already found ure dream girl, i cant even be happy for. what am i? shit? cant even behave like a proper friend. lost EVERY chance i had. . god ! save me. . ) : my mind is like a whirl. i cant think straight. i dont know what to do. i dont know who to turn to. . i never had this feeling before

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